or simply be
this was the central pleasure of the all-you-can-eat
not just the place or the people
but what happened between the two
a meeting place
a decompression chamber
i have been thinking about this feeling lately
with what is happening on/to/around Twitter
a website i have used every other week for about ten years
actually, as at the time of writing this i have been using it for ten years and one week
i know this because on the ten year anniversary
Twitter prompted me to tweet about it with a pre-prepared graphic
and which i use for lots of reasons
making friends
like the first writer i knew around my age
who moved to Sydney at the same time i did
and who showed me what a young writer could do:
backyard readings
zine fairs
Voiceworks
sharing my work
and in turn getting work:
many of the opportunities i've had started as a Twitter DM
when i found someone on my frequency
or they found me
and while i think my work is visible now without Twitter
i wonder about those stepping into their art
like me, five years ago
people watching
like at the pizza shop
it's hard to avoid being sucked into the spectacle
when someone kicks up a fuss
but I think Twitter might not be around much longer
or at least not in the same way
it is falling apart socially
my timeline is filled with people packing up their Twitter homestead
opposed to elon musk's ownership
sharing their handles for other social media sites
retweeting their favourite shitposts
and infrastructurally
since i started writing this there have been mass employee lay-offs
followed by mass employee resignations
followed by increasing bugs and outages
i'm unsure how i feel about this
i have tried to go elsewhere
i set up a cohost account
and a mastodon account
right now both feel like blurry knock-offs
with the rough ux you usually get on smaller, noncommercial platforms
but it's not the same
and how could it be?
twitter is not a piece of software
or an online community i felt kin with
it's something messier
a meeting place
and like the pizza shop
its presence in my life is finite
after school finished my friends moved to the city
and eventually i followed them
and while the shop is still there
i can't dwell on the past
though i am still learning this
i recently got a roll of film developed
shot while i was in high school
photos of local haunts
parties i'd forgotten
friends i haven't seen in years
these pangs are intoxicating to me
i am thinking about what's next
it's like moving cities
the places i reside on the internet shape my life
and i am weighing up the shape i want for it
a place where i am queer and safe
a place where i can find and share weird internet art